Paramount owns all Star Trek characters. I make no profit from this story.
This is my second story. All feedback is welcome but please be gentle.
Again, big thanks to Jeannette Low for reading my story and checking my
grammar and spelling. Jeannette also came up with the title, so thanks for that
It was two weeks before Christmas and the Enterprise was orbiting Earth.
Deanna Troi was in her quarters cleaning. She was digging up Christmas
decorations and humming to herself while she worked. Although Deanna was from
Betazed she had grown to love this Earth holiday. Everything was always so calm
and peaceful and people were happy and relaxed. To Deanna this meant a lot
because she did not have to deal with depressing emotions and stress. She could
walk around the ship keeping only minimal mental shields in place. She could
truly relax and enjoy the Christmas spirit.
Suddenly Deanna's thoughts were interrupted by the door chime.
"Come in!" she called.
The doors to her quarters opened to reveal a smiling Will Riker. His
smile faded and was placed by puzzlement when he could not see anyone inside. He
stepped trough the door and looked around.
"I'm here!" came a muffled reply from the bedroom.
Will walked towards the sound and his smile came back when he saw
Deanna. Or..well, all he could see was Deanna's bottom. She was on her hands and
knees in her closet going trough a box of decorations.
"Hi, can I help you with that?" he asked chuckling.
"What? Oh, no thanks I'm finished here but you could help me to
decide where to put these." She said getting up and looking at Will.
"Sure, did you already have something in mind?"
When Will and Deanna were finished hanging up the decorations they sat
down on the couch.
"You know what would be really great, Will?"
"To have a Cristmas tree here in my quarters."
"Well, that's easy to arrange. Just replicate one."
"No Will, I don't want a replicated one. That's not the same as a
real one. It doesn't feel the same and it doesn't smell the same."
"Yeah, I guess you're right..."
"Captain to Commander Riker!"
"Commander, could you come to my ready room. I could use your
opinion on something."
"I'll be right there, sir. Riker out."
Will looked to Deanna and stood up.
"Sorry, duty calls!"
Deanna smiled up at him. "Go, we'll talk some more tomorrow. Wanna
come over to breakfast?"
"I'd love to. See you then." He gave her a peck on the cheek
and with that, he was gone.
The next morning after breakfast Will asked Deanna what she had planned
to do next.
"I am going to make a gingerbread house! Or at least I'm going to
"Wow, that sounds great! Where did you get that idea?"
"I read some more about Earth's Christmas traditions and I got the
idea from there."
"Can I help you make that, please? I remember my grandmother making
those when I was a child but I have never tried making those myself."
"Of course you can help. I'm pretty sure I'm going to need all the
help I can get and who better to help me than the master cook himself!"
Deanna said smiling.
"Great! So, what do we do first?"
"I made the dough yesterday so we can start baking the houseparts
right away. Now, were did I put those molds...? Oh, here they are. You can start
rolling the dough and then I can use these." Deanna said holding up the
Will did as he was told and soon they had the houseparts ready for oven.
(Deanna had asked Geordi to replicate an oven for her and Geordi had just
brought it into Deanna's quarters.)
While the houseparts were baking in the oven. Will and Deanna made lots
of trees and other things to go around the house. They had so much fun that they
did not notice how much time they had used. When the last sheetful of
gingerbreads came out of the oven it was already time for lunch.
"I'm not hungry at all! I've been eating so much dough and this
wonderful smell of gingerbread has completely taken my appetite!"
"Still you better eat something because I have a surprise for you
after you've eaten!" Will said looking mysterious.
This brought back Deanna's appetite and she quickly replicated them
something to eat.
After clearing the table Will asked if Deanna was ready for her
surprise. She was.
"Good, then we'll meet in transporter room 1 in 20 minutes."
"What? Where are we going?"
"Down to Earth. Don't forget to bundle up. It's cold down
Before Deanna could ask anything else Will was out the door.
The first thing Deanna saw after beaming down was snow, lots of snow.
She had to squint her eyes because it was so bright. The sun was shining and the
sky was clear blue. Everything looked so beautiful. The trees were drooping
under the weight of the snow and little birds were hopping on the ground picking
up food people had thrown to them. Deanna inhaled deeply and then watched her
breath form little clouds while she exhaled.
"Oh Will, this place is beautiful."
"I thought you'd like it."
"Where are we? Alaska?"
"So, are we here just to enjoy the view?"
"Nope. We're here because you wanted something."
"I wanted something? What was that?"
"A real Christmas tree."
It took a while before Deanna understood what he had said.
"A tree? We're going to get a real tree for me?"
"Yup!" Will said with a nod.
"Oh Will! Thank you so much! You're the best!" Deanna said and
gave him a big enthusiastic hug.
"You're welcome. Come on, we better go to the marketplace and find
someone who sells trees."
They walked in silence for a while but suddenly Will felt something hit
him. He stopped and turned around. Deanna stood a few meters away giggling and
"You didn't just throw a snowball at me, did you?" he asked
"Who me? I would never do such a thing." Deanna said still
giggling and threw yet another ball at him.
"Oh this means war!" Will said and started making balls of his
Soon a huge fight was going on! When they finally finished they both
looked like snowmen.
"Have you ever made snow angels?" Will asked.
"No. How are they made? The same way as snowmen?"
"No. They are made like this." Will said and lay down on the
ground and moved his arms and legs up and down.
Deanna wanted to make angels too and soon they had a whole angelchoir
flying on the ground.
For hours they played with the snow making snowmen and snowballs. Will
thought Deanna looked so beautiful. Her cheeks were flushed and snowflakes
rested on her eyelashes. She looked so small inside all her thick clothing and
her head was barely visible under the oversized skicap and scarf.
Finally they had had enough for one day and they went to the town to get
the Christmas tree.
Soft snowfall accompanied their trip back to transportersite.
Back on the Enterprise Will had settled Deanna's tree down on one corner
of her quarters and now they were eating dinner and talking about Christmas.
"You know we really should finish making our gingerbread
house." Deanna said "The parts have had enough time to cool."
"Yeah, you're right and maybe afterwards we can decorate the
"That sounds like a good plan. Let's get to work!"
Deanna planned how to put everything while Will melted the sugar. Soon
they could start glueing the parts together. That part was done fast thanks to
the two pairs of hands instead of one. It was the decorating part that took a
long time. They glued lots of colorful candies on the house. And on the house
and everywhere around it, even on their hands, faces, hair and clothes, were
frosting. White, pink, green, yellow, red and blue frosting. Sweet and sticky
Deanna looked at Will and laughed. "You look so yummy I could eat
"Well then, why don't you?" Will asked with a smirk.
Deanna tilted her head and Will could see a mischievous glint in her
eyes. She stepped forward so she was standing right in front of him. She lifted
his right hand and brought it in front of her face. She then stuck out her
tongue and ran it over his palm.
She did this few more times before moving on to his face. She cleaned
the tip of his nose by kissing it lightly and then suddenly she kissed him on
the lips. The kiss was deep and passionate but still so quick and surprising
that Will did not have time to respond. Deanna was already moving away from him
cleaning her own hands and face and acting like nothing out of the ordinary had
"So, you ready to decorate the tree?" she asked holding a big
box of decorations and looking innocent.
Will just stared at her but then he chuckled and shook his head
"Sure, where do we start?"
While Will put the lights on the tree Deanna hung up little angels and
shiny ribbons. When she could not reach any higher she got a high stool and
stood on it. Everything was perfect. She was decorating her own Christmas tree
and Christmas songs were playing in the backround. She had her best friend next
to her and she could feel that he was feeling fine too. So relaxed and happy.
When Deanna reached to the top trying to place the star she suddenly
lost her balance and she felt she was going to fall. She shrieked and tried to
get her balance back but could not. When Will heard her shriek he quickly moved
next to her and cought her. He felt the odd sensation of déjà vu and soon he
remembered. This time she had not fell from a tree but everything else was the
same, her hands around his neck, her startled expression and the fact that their
faces were mere inches from each other.
"You okay?" he asked.
"Yes, I'm fine. Thank you."
Will still had not reacted to her kissing stunt earlier but now was his
chance to get back at her. 'I guess I could continue this déjà vu a bit
farther' he thought and kissed her hard. She was caught off guard first but
since he was still holding her in his arms she could not resist. She gave in to
the kiss and responded to it.
Will carried Deanna to the couch and they sat down without stopping
kissing. Suddenly Deanna felt something in her mind, something strong and
powerful. She broke off startled. She had just felt something she had not felt
in a long time and she was not sure she could handle it. She had felt their
bond, the imzadi bond getting stronger and she could not let that happen. She
knew Will cared for her but did he care enough to be with her the rest of his
life? If he did not she could not let the bond form. She was confused. She did
not know what was going on. Why was she being so flirtatious? And Will? He
should not be kissing her like that if he did not mean it. Gods, she loved him
and wanted him in her life but...
"Deanna, what's the matter?"
Will could see she was in pain. Something was obviously troubling her.
She was near tears.
"Dee? Did I do something wrong? If I did, I apologize. Why are you
Deanna could feel Will's worry and concern.
"No Will, you didn't do anything wrong. It's just that I... I don't
think this is such a good idea. I think you should leave now."
Will did not want to leave but he did not want to cause her anymore pain
so he got up.
"Okay Dee, I'll go. You going to be alright?"
She nodded and looked sadly in his eyes.
"Thanks for today. I've had a great time."
Will went and Deanna was left alone.
She sighed and let the tears come. 'What am I going to do? We have spent
so much time together lately that our bond is getting stronger. I can feel him
all the time. I don't even have to try to find his mind because he's with me all
the time. I think he could send to me quite easily but he doesn't know it
because he hasn't tried. Oh, it would be wonderful to complete the bond but that
can't be done if we're not going to be together for the rest of our lives.
Living with the bond would be too difficult. We couldn't live separate lives if
our minds were one.'
In his quarters Will was thinking same kind of thoughts as Deanna were.
He did not know why he felt the way he did and why he had acted the way he had.
'I think I'm falling for her all over again. I have been in love with her almost
all of my life but now I feel it so strong again. When I kissed her today I felt
something in my mind. I wonder what it was. The feeling was gone when she broke
the kiss. But whatever it was it was strong and felt good. I could have kissed
her all night. She's my Imzadi and I want to make her feel happy and loved. It
hurts me to see her suffer. I love her and that's never going to change. I can't
live without her. But what does she feel? Why did she break the kiss? Doesn't
she want me? Love me?'
Days went by. They were busy with work. They only saw each other on the
bridge but they could not talk there. They were not even ready to talk. They
needed to make sure what they wanted before they could talk about it with each
other. They shared long glances but nothing more.
It was Christmas Eve and the Enterprise crew was having a Christmas
party in Ten-Forward. There was a big (replicated) Christmas tree, decorations
and lots of good food and music. No one was wearing a uniform. Women had
beautiful dresses and men wore suits or some other off duty clothes. Everybody
was cheery and happy. Laughter filled the room and the Christmas spirit could be
felt. In the middle of the room was a mistletoe hanging from the roof. Every now
and then couples happened to stop under it and whenever someone noticed this
they were forced to kiss (if they did not do it willingly).
The senior crew of the Enterprise was also having a good time. Captain
Picard was dancing with Doctor Crusher and Will had asked Deanna to dance with
him. Now they were moving slowly across the dancefloor holding each other tight.
It felt so right to them both. Deanna wanted to know what Will was thinking and
probed his mind gently. She tried to do it so that Will would not notice but of
course he did. He was a little surprised but he willingly opened up his mind to
her. He did not want to keep any secrets from her. He had decided to tell her
how he felt. He let her feel his love and need for her. His desire and his will
to spent the rest of his life with her. In his mind he thought only one thing,
~I love you~.
Deanna sure did feel everything Will had wanted her to feel. Her heart
raced and she felt like her feet were turning into melted butter. With a
questioning look on her face she looked deep into his eyes.
"Are you sure?" she whispered to him trembling in his arms.
"Yes. I love you!" he said tightening his hold of her.
At that moment the music ended and people stopped moving. Deanna and
Will stopped too, right under the mistletoe.
"Kiss her Will!" someone called.
Deanna and Will looked around and found everybody staring at them.
"We want to see a kiss!" someone yelled again.
Will looked up at the mistletoe and then at Deanna. He lifted his
eyebrows in question and hesitated. But Deanna did not hesitate anymore. She
knew now how Will felt and had recovered from the surprise so much that she put
her arms around Will's neck and pulled him down for a kiss. Their kiss was sweet
and gentle and full of love and in the middle of it Will heard Deanna in his
mind ~I love you too~.
When the kiss ended Deanna looked at Will and smiled her eyes full of
emotions. She took his hand in hers and whispered, "Come, we need to talk.
Let's go to my quarters."
Deanna lit up a few candles and sat down in front of her tree. Will sat
next to her and took something from his pocket. It was a small box wrapped with
golden paper and ribbon. He gave the box to Deanna and said "Merry
With trembling hands Deanna removed the wrapping paper and opened the
box. Inside was a small diamond ring.
"Oh my god! Will, it's beautiful!".
"I'm glad you like it."
Will took the ring and held it in front of her. He took a deep breath
trying to calm himself. He looked deep into her eyes and finally said
"Deanna, Imzadi, I love you. Will you marry me?".
Deanna's eyes grew large and filled with tears of joy. She nodded and
managed a weak "yes".
Will put the ring to her finger and Deanna watched it reflecting the
lights from the candles.
~I love you so much! I can't believe this is really happening.~ she
thought to him.
Will just smiled to her and was about to kiss her when suddenly she
"What's the matter Dee?" he asked concerned.
"I...Are you absolutely sure about this Will? If we kiss there's no
"What are you talking about? Of course I'm sure! I love you and I
want you to be my wife! "
"But Will... You don't know everything... If we kiss and...(she
hesitated) and make love...our bond will form. It will become complete. Are you
sure you can handle that?"
"Yes, baby. With you I can handle anything."
"But it's so strong! Our minds will be linked for ever. We'll be
one. I can never leave you and you can never leave me. We'll be true Imzadi."
"I know and I understand. Last time that we kissed I felt something
very powerful in my mind and I liked it. It felt so good and so right! I want to
do this. I can't think of anything more pleasurable than to spend the rest of my
life with you!"
Deanna looked at him and knew he was telling the truth.
"In that case, I would be happy to be your wife! I love you and I
want to marry you as soon as possible!"
"I am so happy to hear that!" he said and again was about to
kiss her but this time he stopped and looked at her.
"Can I now kiss you, my beautiful bride to be?"
"Yes, you can!" Deanna said laughing.
Will bent to kiss her but instead of her lips he kissed her neck and
shoulders. He caressed her face and ran his fingers through her long black
curls. He let his hands wander on her body and whispered words of love in her
ear. Will's touch was making Deanna dizzy and she leaned closer to him for
When Will started to remove her dress Deanna got a bit nervous. She had
not been with anyone in a long time and she wanted this time to be perfect. She
was afraid Will would be disappointed with her. She pulled away a bit to give
her time to think but Will did not let her go. He had read her thoughts and
could not quite believe what he had heard. He lifted her chin up and gazed into
her dark eyes. They were filled with love and passion but also with fear.
~Imzadi, you could never disappoint me. I know it's been long since
we've been together but...In the jungle we taught each other and learned from
each other. It will be like that again. Together we learn to love, to know what
feels good. You're the only one I want to be with. No one else can make me feel
the way you do. With you sex isn't sex. It isn't even love making. It's soul
searching and mind melting, becoming one. Don't be afraid. Let go of the fear
and trust me. Let me love you.~
Deanna nodded smiling and let Will remove all her clothes and then he
They stood nude facing each other. Will traced a line along her body and
made Deanna shiver. She took his hand and guided him to the bedroom.
They stood under a mistletoe and Will pulled her to him ~Merry
The second their lips touched, it was like fireworks had been shot to
the sky. A powerful surge ran trough their minds and bodies. They dived head
first into each other's consciousness and would never come up for air. Their
minds locked to an eternal lock that no one had the key to. Their souls were
sealed together forever.