by Carol Sandford
Disclaimer: You want it, you look for it
Set: First contact after Will left Betazed
His face appeared on the vidiscreen before me, and I nearly cried out aloud
as the pain of seeing his beautiful features swam before me. I struggled to
focus as tears clouded my vision for a moment, but I wouldn‘t let the drops
fall, I couldn‘t.
I couldn‘t let him see how I truly felt; Destroyed, devastated, betrayed,
angry, and lonely. Oh how I longed for him to be here, holding me tight in
his arms and apologising like he ought to be.
Not staring at me via a view screen from the other side of the galaxy. I
almost melted at the sound of his voice,
"How are you?"
"I miss you."
"I‘m sorry, Deanna."
"For what, Will, just what are you sorry for?"
"For leaving you."
"Is that all?"
"No, I‘m sorry for sleeping with Wendy, and I‘m sorry for leaving without
saying goodbye. And I‘m sorry for allowing the relationship to escalate to
that point. It was unprofessional of me, and I‘m sorry I pursued you, I
shouldn‘t have done, knowing that I would leave."
"I‘m sorry I fell in love with you, Deanna, I never meant to."
"Your sorry for that?!"
"Yes...No, Yes, I don‘t know. It was incredible. You are incredible. WE
"What about what you did to me, Will. Aren‘t you sorry for that?"
"Isn‘t that what I just said? I‘m sorry for everything, Deanna, what else
do you want me to say?"
"Thanks for what?"
"For nothing I guess."
"Your angry at me?"
"I guess I deserved that. I‘m sorry."
"What for now?"
"Because I‘ve caused you pain."
"You‘re in pain too."
"How do you...?"
"I don‘t have to be empathic to know that, Will."
"Will we be alright?"
"Yes, one day."